Humanity

The irony of getting older is you also get wiser.  But I don't think that really happens and if it does, only to an extent.  But I think the wiser part relates to what we learn from experience and from one another.  I have been through, have been involved in, and have gone through many things that would have broken many people a long time ago...  but I am strong and I truly believe that the Lord has everything to do with all that I've accomplished and who I've become thus far.  And for those of you who may not believe in God, then well, you can just relate to me in that I just could not have done it and make it here alone.

But what I realize every day is that the most difficult part of life is people.  To understand someone, I mean to truly understand someone...  is one of the hardest things I've ever suffered despite some of the things I really have encountered and have gone through.  I cannot believe some of the things that have happened with people around me lately.  And I don't mean what they are going through or what has happened to them but WHO they really turned out to be.  The true colors of so many people around me that I just took for face value have really shone a new light on my life.  I now realize why so many people really only look out for themselves and keep to themselves.  A shame really.  Since we could all teach each other so much through our experiences and help to prevent the heartbreak and sorrow which I have felt every time a loved one has let me down.  And I have been let down many times but I have never once felt this broken.  But I guess there is a breaking point for everyone...  me included.  Perhaps i will soon shake this feeling of doom.  But for now, I really just don't know.  Simply put, I really just don't get it.

Sorry for being such a downer, but the next one will be brighter, I promise. 

Love,

Me